Cathedral Belltower in Split

I am terrified of heights. it is getting worse as I get older.  when I remember my dreams, the thing I have been dreaming generally involves a fall off high things, mostly balconies where for some reason or other, the balustrade has gone missing.  I panic a lot. but I always wake up before I hit the ground.  I wish I was a lucid dreamer and could realise I am dreaming and fly instead of plummeting, terrified, to the ground. why I am terrified interests me because I know most terrors are irrational.  so I challenge my fears frequently. I …

Chartier

Technically, I didn’t take this photograph at all, it just happened that our table was beneath some coat hooks and I asked my friend Marcelo to put the camera up there while him me and Rei ate our meal. We were in the restaurant because we used to do lith printing together at a darkroom in east London.  Lith printing is all about time, developing a print can take a very long time indeed, judging when it is done is not easy.  Lith prints have a ‘snatch point’ the moment when you should pull it from the developer before it …

Deer Jesus

For a while I went through a phase where every film I sent though the camera was cross processed, by which I mean developed in the wrong chemistry.  if it was film for prints, then it went through transparency chemistry, if it was transparency, then it went in to C41.  I was just copying a strand on flickr but it suited my mood of not being able to fit in anywhere.  At the time I took this image, I was incredibly unhappy.  I made a point of doing as much walking before and after my working day as was possible.  …

The Christmas Portrait

This is Christmas in Krakow, late in 1993 or early 94.  This family are sitting on a large crib and getting their photos taken.  They are a strange kind of family.  She dominates in her hound’s-tooth coat, scarf and sunglasses. Her Imelda Marcosness does something to the arrangement that makes the image superficially all about her.  But then again, the father brings to mind Dr Aziz from A passage to India for some reason, older and wiser, plumper, but with a little more thought the lead actor in this play.  But who could look anything less than a supporting character to …